I was
devastated this weekend to open a Christmas card from my friend Edna with an
enclosure letting me know that her husband Bob was dying and not expected to last the
night. Multiple organ failure from multiple causes, some of them long-standing.
Edna
summed him up beautifully: “He was a decent, caring man with a noble heart and
gentle manner. I can hardly remember a life before him nor can I imagine a life
without him.”
I can’t
picture Edna without Bob. When I first met them, they were dating—Edna and I
were Sherlockians (which is a bit like Trekkies, but without the aliens). Bob
was an accountant, with a lot of the attributes you’d associate with that:
quiet, unassuming, blah, blah, blah. But completely laid back, with an
exceptionally sharp mind and a wicked sense of humor. And he’d do anything for
Edna, including going to costume balls dressed up as a character from the
Holmes stories.
And, lord, could he tell a tale. You
should have heard him telling the one about a fellow resident of the apartment
building he once lived in in LA—the guy who’d on occasion get tanked, step out
onto his balcony and shout, “I am the great Filipino god!”
They got
married in my senior year of college. A lapsed Catholic and a non-practicing
Jew—the ceremony was performed by an Episcopal priest who was part of our scion
society (The Loungers and Idlers of Empire, if you’re asking). I vaguely recall
the reception. Bob probably didn’t give a toss about the particulars; he was
marrying Edna and that’s all that mattered to him.
They
used to have me over for dinner a lot while I still lived in LA. The
conversation was always stimulating, entertaining and educational. I got such
different perspectives on things.
As I
mentioned, Bob had left Judaism behind long before he traded New York for LA.
(Edna was the one who made sure that the menorah was up alongside the Christmas
tree, and that the Seder dinner had all the requisite components.) He thought
people put too many artificial barriers between them, and once said, “Everyone
should just marry everyone else until we’re all beige-colored and don’t believe
in any religion.”
I do think
that notion has considerable merit, especially if we end up as kind and generous as Bob.
He was a
huge Star Trek fan; when Star Trek: The Motion Picture came out,
Edna and I went with him to see it the first week it hit the theatres. And, oh—it
was such a dog; when the lights came up Bob looked kind of stunned
and…betrayed, in a way.
Shortly
afterwards, Edna and I wanted to see Polanski’s Tess, so Bob went along. When the lights came up after it was finally
over, he turned to us and said, “We’re even.”
About
eight years ago, I had a calendar printed up using photos I’ve taken over the
years—the UK, France, Reston, Canada, Minnesota, Italy, Oregon… I gave it to
people as Christmas gifts, and was astonished that no one—no one—twigged to the fact that they were my pictures. I
mean—Reston? Where I lived?
No one,
that is, except Bob. As I understand it, the conversation went something like
this:
Edna:
Look at these pictures—all these different places. I wonder who the
photographer is?
Bob: I
think [Bas Bleu] took them.
Edna:
No—they have to be by someone…
Bob:
Well, we have this picture of that church in Minnesota on our wall, and [Bas
Bleu] took that, so…
Edna:
No, there must be a photographer’s name here somewhere.
I about
wet myself when I heard that exchange. It was so…so Bob: he recognized straight away that if one of the shots was mine,
the rest had to be; but he wasn’t invested in being right, Even when he was.
I wish I
had a photo of him to share with you, but there are some friends whose presence
is so vividly imprinted on your memories that you just never take pictures. And
even if you did, a two-dimensional representation isn’t adequate.
In
recent years, Bob had been ill—badly ill; but he steadfastly refused to go
gentle into that good night. Until now. Even the strongest heart can’t
withstand the assaults forever.
I am so
grateful that I knew Bob, that I benefited from his friendship, expanded my
horizons through his perspective, took comfort from his encouragement,
appreciated his generosity and shared so many laughs with him.
If there’s
a Bob in your life, step away from your device right now and give him a call or
a hug. He’s the most precious thing imaginable.